self 孤独和自我

Everthing feels so black and white, and then I'm drawn back into my routine- where I've been hiding my entire life.
Maybe that's why I feel alone. Completely and utterly alone.
But, I guess everyone feels alone most of the time, right?
No, I feel like other people have lives. They do things.
I feel like I have to replicate myself to get anything done.
And, when it's all said and done. it means absolutely nothing.
all the work, all the paychecks.