［EVA］［嗣香］What Comes After Winter（寒冬之后）(17)

他轻轻地握紧了她的手。闭上眼睛数着自己的呼吸节拍。一。二。三。不能再沉默下去了。四。她已经向他敞开心扉了。五。六。岁月流逝，他们越来越频繁地试探彼此。七。八。如果不回应她的期待，他算什么男人、算什么伴侣？
Nine. No more running away.
九。不能逃避。不能逃避。不能逃避。
"I'm scared of forgiveness because I still hate myself. If nobody else does, I'll have to face that fact, and it terrifies me. "
“我拒绝宽恕自己，因为我一直都恨我自己。如果没有一个人来代替我自己恨我的话，我就不得不直面我恨我自己这个事实，这让我很害怕。”
Asuka let out a huff, one tired and annoyed.
明日香发出了一声充满疲惫和怨怒的低吼。
"I thought we were past that. I guess we didn't learn anything, not even after the end of the world."

“我还以为我们都过去了。看来即便是第三次冲击后，我们也还是没有学习到任何教训。”
Her head bounced slightly when he shrugged.
真嗣耸了耸肩，把靠在他肩上的明日香的脑袋微微弹了起来。
"I've read that relapses are common with these things."
“我说过，我在书上读到过，这种情况很常见。”
She snickered. A sad chuckle, pitying both of them.
她低沉地笑了起来。一声苦笑，为可怜的自己，也为身旁可怜的真嗣。
They noticed that the snowfall was coming to an end. Some sunlight could be seen, peeking through the clouds.
他们注意到了降雪即将结束。透过云层，阳光已经隐约可见。