【战锤40k同人作品翻译】Ennui 第二十二章：对策 Measures(11)
The weight of this armour should have been light, carried as it was on the sacred servos and support chassis of the machine, but instead it was almost suffocating.
There was no world in which I deserved to wear this armour. I who had failed to even correctly die amongst my sisters. I who had failed to kill a xeno witch, and instead…
Instead I…
I lifted my fingers to my lips.
Though many cycles had passed since the events of the chapel, I could still feel her there. I could taste the softness of her mouth and the strength of her arms as she cradled me. There was nothing like it in my mind, it had seared itself there indelibly, and I wasn’t sure I wanted it gone even though I knew it was a sin.
She had been dying, and I had offered myself to her. I had let a witch taste of my soul to save her from a rightful and earned damnation because I…
“Isarae,” I whispered her name, and on its heels a splinter of pain entered my heart.
She would return soon, it had been hours since she’d left and she would be back in short order unless she wanted to risk the heavy rainfall. I’d needed those hours to find the strength to do this, because after she’d gone I had simply sat on the long couch despondently with my hand held out beside me as if waiting for her to join me and put her hand in mine like she always did.
There was no world in which I deserved to wear this armour. I who had failed to even correctly die amongst my sisters. I who had failed to kill a xeno witch, and instead…
Instead I…
I lifted my fingers to my lips.
Though many cycles had passed since the events of the chapel, I could still feel her there. I could taste the softness of her mouth and the strength of her arms as she cradled me. There was nothing like it in my mind, it had seared itself there indelibly, and I wasn’t sure I wanted it gone even though I knew it was a sin.
She had been dying, and I had offered myself to her. I had let a witch taste of my soul to save her from a rightful and earned damnation because I…
“Isarae,” I whispered her name, and on its heels a splinter of pain entered my heart.
She would return soon, it had been hours since she’d left and she would be back in short order unless she wanted to risk the heavy rainfall. I’d needed those hours to find the strength to do this, because after she’d gone I had simply sat on the long couch despondently with my hand held out beside me as if waiting for her to join me and put her hand in mine like she always did.
冰九囚笼二十六
