【战锤40k同人作品翻译】 Ennui 第二十五章：光芒 Light(19)

“It is not your burden to lift, Cre’yth.” Why couldn’t I just accept her words? It would be easier, it would be better to allow it, but… it felt wrong. “And even if it were,” I continued, “it would not be enough to lift a thousand lifetimes of ruin.”
Rather than reply, Allessa brought her hands back down to rest on my cheeks.
It was not as comfortable or as certain as it had been before this, but she did it, even if her hands were shaking as she touched my skin, as if she expected there to be some slick of oil there waiting for her, and if there had been I would not have been surprised. Still, though, her thumb traced along the line of my cheek with that familiar fondness that she always touched me with, and in that moment I felt unworthy.

All around us the storm of light persisted as I stared up at the hateful facsimile of my soul that still hung above me. Her face was twisted in an expression of low, ugly hatred, and I took some small comfort in the fact that I found her disgusting to look upon. 
She was me, and I was utterly, utterly revolted.
“I love you, ‘Rae,” Alessa sobbed. “And I forgive you, because you are not who you were… you are better.”