【生肉搬运】鸟雀Passerine 第五章(40)
Philza’s heart shattered. “Because if I did, if I allowed myself that foot in the door, I knew I wouldn’t have had the courage to leave again.”
“And did you ever think of us?”
“Of course. Every second of every day.”
“I never thought of you,” Wilbur said. “Or, at least, I tried not to. It was hard. I saw you everywhere. In the paintings, in the garden, down every hallway. In Tommy’s eyes. In Techno’s words.” He closed his scarred hand, so tightly that the wound opened once more, spilling blood onto the grass. “But what’s strange is that I never saw you in me.”
Thunder echoed over the valley, but Philza barely heard it. “I think that’s a good thing, Wilbur.”
“No.” Wilbur gave a rueful shake of his head. “No, it’s not. I’m tired of pretending it is. I’m tired of everything. I wish I could be just like you and leave it all behind without looking back.”
That was enough. Philza went and kneeled before Wilbur, his hands finding Wilbur’s shoulders. Wilbur’s expression crumpled, and Philza knew it wasn’t just rain dripping down his cheeks.
“And did you ever think of us?”
“Of course. Every second of every day.”
“I never thought of you,” Wilbur said. “Or, at least, I tried not to. It was hard. I saw you everywhere. In the paintings, in the garden, down every hallway. In Tommy’s eyes. In Techno’s words.” He closed his scarred hand, so tightly that the wound opened once more, spilling blood onto the grass. “But what’s strange is that I never saw you in me.”
Thunder echoed over the valley, but Philza barely heard it. “I think that’s a good thing, Wilbur.”
“No.” Wilbur gave a rueful shake of his head. “No, it’s not. I’m tired of pretending it is. I’m tired of everything. I wish I could be just like you and leave it all behind without looking back.”
That was enough. Philza went and kneeled before Wilbur, his hands finding Wilbur’s shoulders. Wilbur’s expression crumpled, and Philza knew it wasn’t just rain dripping down his cheeks.
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