【生肉搬运】鸟雀Passerine 第五章(32)
“Your son is dead.” The words tasted like ash on his tongue. “His corpse is right in front of you, and you want to talk about yourself?”
Philza flinched, but that was the extent of his reaction. “This is important. You have to understand—”
“What is there left for me to understand?”
“It’s not over.” Philza’s eyes bore through him. “The war isn’t over.”
Techno exhaled heavily. “Don’t screw with me right now. I’m done. I’m finished.”
“Would it help,” Philza said slowly, “if I told you the leader of the Green Army—its general, its ruler, whatever—is still out there?”
Techno blinked, hot tears still stinging his eyes. “What?”
Philza’s lips drew into a thin line—a habit Techno recognized from their empire days as something Philza did when he was trying not to scream. “I left for a thousand different reasons, Techno. When my—when she died, I just knew. Though the pain of losing her was more than I could bear, I knew something worse would come. And it did come—sooner than I expected, but it came.” He glanced at Tommy, his expression undecipherable. “Her death destroyed me. But I knew the day I lost my sons would be the day I destroyed the world.” His eyes slid to Techno. “You understand that, I think.”
Philza flinched, but that was the extent of his reaction. “This is important. You have to understand—”
“What is there left for me to understand?”
“It’s not over.” Philza’s eyes bore through him. “The war isn’t over.”
Techno exhaled heavily. “Don’t screw with me right now. I’m done. I’m finished.”
“Would it help,” Philza said slowly, “if I told you the leader of the Green Army—its general, its ruler, whatever—is still out there?”
Techno blinked, hot tears still stinging his eyes. “What?”
Philza’s lips drew into a thin line—a habit Techno recognized from their empire days as something Philza did when he was trying not to scream. “I left for a thousand different reasons, Techno. When my—when she died, I just knew. Though the pain of losing her was more than I could bear, I knew something worse would come. And it did come—sooner than I expected, but it came.” He glanced at Tommy, his expression undecipherable. “Her death destroyed me. But I knew the day I lost my sons would be the day I destroyed the world.” His eyes slid to Techno. “You understand that, I think.”
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