Crush On You - Chapter IV(8)

I could find no words to describe how I was shocked at that moment by hearing such a brave announcement from a gorgeous boy who used to be called “Ruffian”. How should I call this condition, some kind of bidirectional secret love? And furthermore what the hell should I react now! Hug him as firmly as I could or say some nonsense to expression my amazement?
“Thought about you spinning in my head nearly drove me crazy, man! I could not stand it anymore. I’m sorry Rory to make you disgusted in such a way and in my opinion we better keep a distance from now on.” He stood up from seat brusquely and was about leaving.

I dragged his hand behind instantly and held it tightly. Nothing would stop me and some fragile boundary obstructing in the way to him for me must be broken immediately. Thanks to you, dude, you were the more courageous one who pushed me forward to face my real inclination.