【赛马娘同人文】Grazing Unyield 英文部分2(23)

she can't let me infinitely trying to save her; 
she can't abide her now strengthless body; 
she can't tolerate victories, hope, and everything that had shined churning from her fingers.
Ha, how funny.
This impulse had tortured me before.
I had thought I'd dispelled it.
I had thought she had simply saved me; how selfish was I.
It's still there, the lingering lamentation and the dead silence that had wrapped around me.

Without her radiance and heat, that silence's counterattack corrodes my heart by every inch.
I had done all I could, but still, I can't even face the word 'tomorrow'.
I...Where else could I go?
...
Stretching the heavy steps. I reached that desired place.
It closes by the seconds, and the howling wind's whisper furthers at the same pace.