【赛马娘同人文】Grazing Unyield 英文部分2(14)

"Ah...Teio..."
Lying weakly on the table, I buried my face in my arms, yet my spine had lost any spirit in strengthening itself.
The injustice of kismet, the indulgence of her...All piling up in that viscous silence, a sense of powerlessness drowning me to my throat.
A grotesque urge suddenly swept through me, sending shivers down my spine.
A voice, it appeared inside me.

"Give it up." It persuaded me.
It continued its silent mutters, as my inner self was almost convinced.
St. Leger? Just let that whimsical dream shatter.
For me, disillusionments and compromises are old friends.
She'll suffer, sure.
I could declare her retirement publically now. It's just a matter of time.
How much resentment she could throw at me, that's not a problem.