stupid me

I got a bone fracture.
I was skateboarding and being stupid to try this new move. 
It is kind of weird feeling. I always knew this would come, got hurt. It is waiting for another shoe to fall, considering the bruised right arm. This time, left wrist, worse wound. 
Does this mean i am self-harming? Like the character in my novel. I actually don’t know. Perhaps i was just wishing some change during this ever-lasting pandemic. Any change.