Why on earth am I standing here...（我究竟为什么站在这里。。。）

I want to run away. I’m fed up with this kind of life.
Sure. but you should finish the mission.
No! I refuse! I'm fed up with endless wars. Death, blood, wailing, tragedy, intrigue, spears and arrows……The war made me going crazy! I never want to stay in this f**king ghost place for a second!
I sympathize with your misfortune. But, sorry, you can’t refuse it.
Why?
Because, this is you destiny. And…
And what?
You ,must to do it. it was be doomed… when she died...