Confessions of silver snow. （银雪的自白）

Confessions of silver snow. （银雪的自白）
I don't know why. 
I've been having some mental problems lately. 
Save me wondering why he left again. 
I miss him very much. 
All the time, I think about it. 
I've been in some pain lately. 
I'm tormented by my fantasies. 
Now I take my friend's advice. Think of fantasy as a person. 
But it only scared me a lot. 
I became more afraid. 
I don't think I can get better.