英语意识流。。。(2)

When there is nothing to organise.
And after that thought, the mind is far from being empty.
It became a zoo of thoughts.
Compiled.
Compressed.
Contained.
But then released.
Pushed out again.
Flooded.
It's like a trade.
For that blank, you lost time.
But after you had that blank, you want more time to be in that blank.
Because that blank space helps you.
It helps you to not think about the things that you don't want to think about.
It means that you have a place.

A place that no one can disturb you.
And that blank space is spotless.
There's nothing there.
Nothing there until...
Clouds.
The sky is not empty anymore.
There are clouds.
The thoughts.
They are back, pulling you to reality.
The world.
It's a mess.
But if we empty the mess out...
It's still going to be a mess.
Even if you pull destruction on the world, it's still a mess.
The empty mess.
The mess that exists, but doesn't.
You can feel the thoughts crawling on to you.